The Abyss and Heroes of Light

     Humanity is this careful balance between the light and the dark. We try to be good and do what's right but there is always something in the back of our minds, some primal urge, to do what is wrong. No one is above reproach. Not Suzy from down the street or even the Pope. This is just a flaw in humanity but not one that has to control us or consume us. No. For many there is always this looming darkness from whence they can't escape. Tendrils of ebony reach out pulling at the mind and puppet the body. We often use heroes or idols to show us the light. That perfect state of both mind and body that sets us above reproach from the forces that try to drag us down. Unfortunately some of these individuals are more corrupt then the forces they oppose. Power corrupts. This never changes. You can only be the light for you. It is only with in yourself that you can realize your potential for goodness and yes it will be different for everyone and that's fine. You don't have to live up to some stranger or societies expectations on good or bad. Society itself has corrupted these ideals. It is only you who can decide and change who you are. Others can help but it is entirely upon your own shoulders to change and make yourself better. Make no mistake though, as I said above we have to sustain this careful balance. Too much good can be just as bad as too much evil. We are beings of chaos after all.
     On the topic of chaos I bring to you a book I am in the process of reading called Hoodoopocalypse by Kim Wells. I am still in the early chapters of this book but I can tell you that it is very interesting. It's not often I see the apocalypse brought on by these forces. I wont spoil anything for you but if you like reading books set in and related to the deep south as well as some of the lesser known magics that reside here I suggest picking this up. Its a short read measuring only 174 pages but these pages are used extremely efficiently.
     No game adventures today. Games I'm currently playing: Guild Wars 2, Morrowind

The Apocalypse is Waiting

     My adventures as of late lead me down the path of nostalgia. After much conflict the realm of Morrowind opens once more and in I stride as a legend of the past. My absence has dulled my skills but my memory fails me not as I traverse few hurdles before digging in. The land of Morrowind is an apocalyptic style country. Home of the dark elves and ravaged by a fierce volcano. I will step off the boat to this new land a prisoner but how will they remember be. Will I be remembered as a Hero or Villain. Only time will tell.
     Many a fan was knocked to their knees this week as the trailer for Fallout 4 dropped. Money poured out of their pockets as they clamored to get pre-orders in. The trailer keeps faithful to the past few games. We are awed and inspired by the wastes. Of a future we dodged by some faint margin. But by one we still may suffer if we don't control ourselves better. Only time will tell whether the game will live up to its predecessors or just become a wasteland of money poorly spend and jobs swiftly destroyed.
     Often in life we bypass anything that makes us think. Much of our society is more than happy with mind numbing behaviors and the repeating of past mistakes. I'm sure if you are reading this that you have merely bumbled upon it or have followed some link dropping you here. If you do find yourself here I pose but a brief and easy challenge. Look into something that interests you. Once you've gain knowledge from that topic share it with someone else, anyone. Tell your parents, siblings, relatives, loved ones, a random person on the street. It could be anything. I prefer to look into topics about space. You may want to look into something different, may I suggest origins of the supernatural, like the dullahan or fairy mythologies. They can be quite the interesting read and you may not look at things like the headless horseman or Santa the same way ever again.
     What inspires you?    

Internal Wars and Societal Predation

     Be warned there is some cursing later down this post.    

     So today my adventures bring me along the darkest of paths. The paths of social interaction and internal strife. As a race we find ourselves heading down a path of destruction, but not by means of crime or war but by Social Darwinism. We use technology to consume information by the bucket loads. Much of this information is drown in blind ideals that upon original conception were promising and even helpful but now are wielded like swords and shields only used to strike down those that don't believe the same.
     I'm sure your asking what brings on such a post. It is not any one thing rather an over arching pattern I see. So many choose not to think for themselves, they choose not to discuss topics that may go against their own "beliefs". They lash out violently at non-existent slights. Society is in a downward spiral that no one person can fix. It can only be by effort of the masses to fix what we have so gleefully destroyed. Much of the focus on problems see to be these, self-image issues, politics, religion, feminism, ect. I don't use these to call out any one person or group but show them as some of the issue.
     Commercialized media bombards us with "ideal" forms that they dictate we conform to being. Commercials, posters, billboards, hell even the close size we ware are all forced to make us think lesser of ourselves. Politicians roam our landscape unchecked by all but those whom control their pocketbooks instead of the people they are meant to represent. Then the people themselves are blinded by some false ideal and "party boundaries" that are taboo to cross. Religion forces itself upon us trying to bend us to an ideology that is older than any one remaining society. How is Pastor John down the road at the baptist church or Reverend Jones or Father Smith supposed to tell me what men who have been dead for well over a 1000 years wanted us to do. Especially since they quote from a book translated so many times that the possibility of a 100% truth existing is impossible. Feminism is also dangerous. I'm all for empowering women. Hell yeah you want to do this or that go ahead. But don't go attacking someone because they make a joke that for whatever reason you think is inappropriate or the whole lets take over or all men are evil shtick. Men are no more or less evil than women. Have men done dumb shit over the history of humanity. Oh hell yes but be careful how you judge someone because that same person my one day hold your life in their hands.
     So basically we all need to stop and think. Have discussions amongst one another and just talk. Look into not only your own point of view but others as well. Broaden your horizons. Don't let society turn into a vicious hunt where those who don't conform are killed.

     Much of my gaming these past days have left me with not much in the way of adventure. So today a change in course to the Guild Wars 2 I return after a lengthy break. Much has changed in my absence and there is much exploring to do maybe a mighty dragon will fall to my blade this day or maybe I will become but a speck of dirt upon its claw. Who knows but you must find adventure in all that you do keep life interesting and never let it get you down. The night is always darkest before the dawn. Remember that and if you ever feel down, worried or troubled then find those whom you can call real friends and sit with them. Talk and try to alleviate your issues. A good hug and a small talk over some food or warm drinks can do for you in minutes what a lifetime of experience can teach you.

All Life is a Battlefield

     I find myself sitting at work today in search of new horizons. My current job keeps me but a sparse two days a week of employment and a meager, nigh non-existent income. I often find myself in combat versus the urges wrought by our capitalistic society. "Oh my what a shiny thing, I must have it" I think to myself. Then reality shield bashes me in the face, "But dear boy you have not the funds needed to pursue such frivolous things". Defeat stands at the feet of an economy where jobs are sparse and ones you can live on even more so.
     So what do I do I hunt. My prey, new employment. Sadly it is not like the days of old where on could simply walk into a business and request possible employment. No. To acquire employment one must become part of the faceless masses awash in a sea of under qualified or over qualified combatants all vying for that ever shrinking piece of pie we know as employment. My resume, sad. My experience, laudable. My aspirations, great, for I don't wish to become some faceless suit behind a desk making more money than he knows what to do with. NO! I desire only what is necessary to sustain a semi-comfortable living. Think of it more as survival. Can I feed myself, check. Can I keep shelter over my head, check. This is all I seek out of employment. This does not show however my true desire. What I want is to be able to make people happy in whatever way possible. Too many people see nothing but darkness in their lives. Society cripples everyone with self-image issues, political correctness, and a bevvy of other things that are ludicrous. Our senses are constantly onslaught with how we aren't good enough and how we will never be good enough. Here is what I have to say. Ignore them. I know it is difficult, trust me. Those whom torment you will lose power the less attention you give them. Find happiness in what you do. Whether its something as simple as writing or reading silly little blogs like this, watching Youtube after a hard days work, or even getting a hobby and quietly tinkering away. These are the things that will save you a lifetime of sadness. Get out. Hang with friends. Hug your parents/spouse/sibling/friend. Let someone know you care and they will show you they care too. It may not be in the same way that you express but they will show it in their own little way.
     Today my adventures lead me back to the pixels old. Morrowind calls to me and this eve I shall indulge. I wonder what adventures await me in those mountains. I wonder how many times I shall fall to the Cliffracer menace.

See you next time!