The Abyss and Heroes of Light

     Humanity is this careful balance between the light and the dark. We try to be good and do what's right but there is always something in the back of our minds, some primal urge, to do what is wrong. No one is above reproach. Not Suzy from down the street or even the Pope. This is just a flaw in humanity but not one that has to control us or consume us. No. For many there is always this looming darkness from whence they can't escape. Tendrils of ebony reach out pulling at the mind and puppet the body. We often use heroes or idols to show us the light. That perfect state of both mind and body that sets us above reproach from the forces that try to drag us down. Unfortunately some of these individuals are more corrupt then the forces they oppose. Power corrupts. This never changes. You can only be the light for you. It is only with in yourself that you can realize your potential for goodness and yes it will be different for everyone and that's fine. You don't have to live up to some stranger or societies expectations on good or bad. Society itself has corrupted these ideals. It is only you who can decide and change who you are. Others can help but it is entirely upon your own shoulders to change and make yourself better. Make no mistake though, as I said above we have to sustain this careful balance. Too much good can be just as bad as too much evil. We are beings of chaos after all.
     On the topic of chaos I bring to you a book I am in the process of reading called Hoodoopocalypse by Kim Wells. I am still in the early chapters of this book but I can tell you that it is very interesting. It's not often I see the apocalypse brought on by these forces. I wont spoil anything for you but if you like reading books set in and related to the deep south as well as some of the lesser known magics that reside here I suggest picking this up. Its a short read measuring only 174 pages but these pages are used extremely efficiently.
     No game adventures today. Games I'm currently playing: Guild Wars 2, Morrowind

Past, Present, and Dragons

     Today I dove deep into the clutter that I call my room. I combat dust and piles of stuff. Things from the past consume this space in a seemly endless void of what once was. I find amongst my many papers, handouts, and old assignments, stories of old. Things I wrote either as assignments for the one creative writing class I could actually take or things I would jot down whilst a professor would go on about this thing or that. Because of a recent illness my adventure had to be cut short as to not force a relapse but interesting things I found. A rare poem I wrote about a Ronin. A sort of space opera that I only completed the first few chapters of. Many fond memories and many painful ones.
     These past years have been hard. Life swings and swings hard. Many times have I been knocked down thinking I couldn't get back up. Hiding the pain that would often torment me. Trying to be strong for those that couldn't. Trying to show compassion, concealing rage in situations where I had no power to help the situation. The thing is I always got back up. I always get back up. No matter how hard I'm hit, how tough the struggle I persevere. I have to, if I don't they who will. We grow weak and complacent in an era that is wrought with perceived slights. A teen here gets called a name then the next day kills themselves never to think of the harm they inflict to those around them. We have be come a society of self-centered people and no one wants to stand on there own or take responsibility. Life is tough. Its far tougher than most people realize and what people don't understand is that everything is not just handed to you. Sometimes you have to take a few Haymakers to win the fight. Sometimes you have to get knocked down before you can truly stand. But when you do, you realize that life is a thing worth living. Bullies come and go as do victories, losses, loved ones, and even memories. Life takes much...but life also gives as much back you just have to be willing to reach out and grasp what is put before you.
     My best advice is to always get back up. Dust yourself off and keep moving. Stagnation and self loathing are our greatest enemies and only when you can clearly see what the problem is can you move forward and address it. Stay strong. Chin up.
     In other adventures my brother got me Dragon Age: Inquisition for my birthday. I am about 30 hours in...yes you read that right 3 0 hours and I don't even think that I'm half way. I know what you're thinking though, "Oh that is just a bunch of filler no way can the game be fun and that long". Well I will agree that there is a lot of what could be considered "filler", many many side quests but they aren't just thrown together things they fell like they belong. The story is interesting I played Dragon Age: Origins but I haven't played any others so many of the Dragon Age 2 jokes and references are lost on me but that's okay I enjoy them anyway. The part of the game that I find most enjoyable though is the inner character interactions. Your party members will occasionally talk amongst one another and often times to rather comical ends. I will abstain from a final verdict on this game until I finish it but it is promising so far.

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